Needs to Learn To Be Selfish

Monday, August 31, 2009

Suddenly, things happen so quickly. And I want to settle all of them quickly.

I don't know is it I'm not mentally prepared for it. There are people who tell me not to do a particular thing. But I chose to do it. Is it I'm ill-prepared for all these. Is it that I'm asking too much of people to do things? Am I all wrong in judging the entire situation?

I feel very bad complaining to people about all the things. But I just want some room and time to do the things and settle all the things when I have the time. Am I assuming everything, am I just that inflexible and am I just that kind of people who cannot understand the situation? Or I assumed that everything can be settled way before the time when I have no time to deal with it?

But everything just seems so familiar. Things happen like this over and over again. I just feel really fed-up. I just feel so turned off when people tried to explain to me their position and what I should do or what they hope I can be. Perhaps when I look at it when I'm more calm I would really feel sorry, but now, my "sorry"s are just so superficial that I am doing it, or I have to do it, to avoid more trouble and prevent myself from losing more time and patience.

Maybe I'm really very fed up. I need my time to rest. I need time to sort all these through my mind again.

But I also don't have so much time, to wait, to wait and to wait. I'm sandwiched by deadlines.