It's A Ridiculous Situation

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

I need an outlet to let my emotions run free.
I think the whole situation is getting so ridiculous.


I thought putting in hard work is enough to get me a good grade.
I thought I would be able to think more positively by smiling more.
I thought everything is fine.
I thought I would be happier by studying what I like.
I thought I could handle the situation.
I thought it's better to be nice to others.

But how wrong can I be in an environment which I can get outsmarted, outmugged. I am can only get outstressed.

I don't understand why I have to give up so much time of what I like.
I don't understand why am I spending so much more effort trying to understand.
I don't understand why I am always lagging behind.
I don't understand why everybody wants to compare.
I don't understand why I have so little time.

I don't know why I must spend time debating over that 1 mark.
I don't know why I can't memorise what I have studied.
I don't know why I am stressed over should I fake my results.

It's because everyone is paranoid.
It's because everyone is selfish.
It's because everybody is doing this so I'm losing out when I'm not doing it.

I want my life back.
It's a ridiculous situation.

And I want to do well.
But it shouldn't be in this way.

Go away all my negative thoughts with this blog post.
There is no point taking up things that I don't enjoy and I feel stressed.

There's shouldn't be a point of being stressed.
你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你的保护色
Sometimes things are not that fine.

But I can only move forward. I am hanging on a very thin line.