Lonely - Feeling of Being the Only

Sunday, August 19, 2007

My mind now feels really alone.

How do I put it - there are times when I think I am the only one who thinks about the problem this way. There's no one else who feels the same way as I do.

I think being in the army has some advantages as well. Being with a group of people constantly, living with them, working with them...is actually a chance to interact. And being together for so long, I become more accustomised to them and begin to behave the way I do at home.

And I found that I'm a very honest and direct person. I feel very uncomfortable keeping my frustrations in me. And the trade-off is - I offend people rather easily.

I also tend to feel insecure about my own behaviour. Should I feel this way? Should I have said things in this way? Should I have done this differently?

It sounds as if I want to be politically correct. But it's also important to me not to hurt other people in the process when I try to emotionally unload myself.

Perhaps if I'm not the only child, the entire problem will not be as difficult.

2 years back when still at JC...around the same time of the year I remember I was given an essay assignment. Out of the 12 question choices, this topic immediately caught my eye and I decided to write about it.

"The advantages and disadvantages of being the only child"

Who can be in a better position to write on this topic?

Being an only child sure has some advantages. Being the only one who is loved, being the only one who is tended to, being the only one who is cared for...

The list can go on for on and on.

But I feel unbelievably lonely.

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